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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
8:53PM
so funny enough if this month wasn't already going to shit... guess who got summoned for jury duty?
no i need to stop complaining because apparently somethings got it out for me..
i will post random trips i have been taking when i have the effort so i don't sound soo emo/depressed
people have it far worse than me, so i need to get over it
Saturday, August 1, 2009
sooo about a couple months ago i went to go see my doctor because my period went for two weeks straight and early..... he told me that it was normal because i went back to the lower estrogen pill.... mainly because the other one with higher doses made me sick everyday...
and here i am for the third month in the row starting early and bleeding for almost two weeks... and yet he still has the balls to tell me that it is normal.... i'm sorry bleeding for two fucking weeks is not normal by any means... a little annoyed with him i stated "really two weeks is bleeding is normal, for a pill pack that is only 21 days, and which part of normal is this?"
he kinda got that i wasn't to happy he wasn't taking me seriously and just bitching to get pain pills, i didn't want pain pills i don't WANT TO BLEED FOR TWO GOD DAMN WEEKS... i told him that maybe he should get my period for two flippin weeks and see how bitchy he is....
i seriously what to know what the fuck is wrong with this doctor? i am never going to him again i truly believe he is a moron now..
but now i'm in a dilemma because i really don't want to go on the higher estrogen, i don't want the shot, and i don't want an IUD...... which leaves me with either hoping and praying i don't get pregnant , and knowing my damn luck i get pregnant, and i don't want to have an abortion... or i just don't have sex, which really doesn't make me happy either. i know there are other methods, to which i will now have to seek out desperately
eh... sorry for the bitchy rant just extremely irritated
Current mood:  cranky
Sunday, July 12, 2009
went up to flagstaff with caitlyn and drew yesterday..... it was nice, you could walk around and not burn to death. additionally caitlyn and myself went on a little shopping spree. it was nice to be able to shop with her and not have to go to specific places to buy my clothes. i know its shallow but that really is one of the reasons i wanted to lose weight. got a lot of clothes that will fit me for awhile, nice thing about flagstaff is the hippie clothes...
went to the casino on the way back, im the only one who one something ...... others were bitter about losing... it was fun
now im off to clean the house.....
Friday, July 10, 2009
3:52PM
so i am down thirty pounds.... and now back to high school weight, however, i shall be going much lower than that..... woot wooot
life is good
kitties are little demons that wake me up in the middle of the night, just to say hello to me
Saturday, June 20, 2009
1:15AM
i am drunk. i am surprised i can type woot woot...
yay
Thursday, April 23, 2009
4:52PM
sometimes i think i should just stab the pain out... because as far as i'm concerned my stomach is completely useless...
ugh
Monday, March 9, 2009
6:02PM
i thought this was goiing to be a good spring break but i was very wrong.
i have to go to california soon my uncle has pushed himself too far he had a massive heart attack due to liver failure and extreme drug usage.he was pronounced brain dead, and his system failed on life support. i don't think he could ever find happiness in this world, but he had many that loved him.
i am officially depressed
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
So i think its the first time in about 5 years I have my spring break off with paid vacation. woot.
we are finally going to set up the house and get it cleaned (yay for organization that will last only a week)
going to the ren fair, we have been waiting forever to go, plus my boss gave me the last day off, so we can go twice
going to vegas next week
and i guess i'm suppose to do homework, oh well
Friday, January 9, 2009
trying to blame a religion for death does not make up for the death or loss
whether you believe in that religion or not, think its a sham, people have the CHOICE to believe in what they want. while i do not support religion in general, people can choose what they feel is necessary to get on with their lives.
attempting to protect privacy of an individual, should not be mistaken as attempting to cover up the disease
I'm very tired of people not looking into the real situation and the entire circumstances and blaming the lack of medication as the reason of death because it was not. The last thing Americans need is more medication... we are a pill popping society and we need to face that. Medication has wonderful benefits but at the same time people abuse them and try to solve their problems with them without dealing with the reality of the choices they make.
anyway I'm off to actually start studying ... Haaa that means look at more useless information and random stories
Current mood:  calm
Friday, December 5, 2008
8:49PM
I just watched this foreign film called together that i must say i absolutely enjoyed and loved it, I heart netflix that allows my foreign films
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
3:06AM
ive been puking for three days now... i'm wondering if this is going to end because i'd rather not go to the hospital for them to only tell me its the flu.
but wtf seriously this is not cool
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
so i got the bridesmaid dresses in, and i must say for star trek uniforms they are quite adorable. and that model was just not right for the uniform.. her hips stuck out horribly .
second drew is going to look like a nerd, but i am not really one to talk, i am the one who suggested a star trek wedding.
i am just really grateful that everyone was willing and happy to do the uniforms, even wynetta who god knows will be hiding from photography.. but than again i'll get the pay back right? even if she doesn't get married.
thank you for all that have helped and done suggestions, for all of those who have spent money when money is very tight. i appreciate it greatly.
now i really should get to sleep, i am picking my dress up in 7 hours.
Current mood: grateful
Friday, August 15, 2008
9:01AM
ha,
so its all settling in. and i am very excited for the next two weeks. started on favors. cake is taken care of. wedding planner is cool for not charging another hour and throwing in extra booze, cause you know you just need more alcohol at your wedding..... haaaaaaaaa
and on august 30th, the nerds will be getting married.
Last night was a pretty hellish night at work, a little thunder and rain and you think that the world is ending at the airport, well at least the line out past the elevators was not a nice thing and eleven. but i guess its good that we are getting that buisness.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
7:23AM
all my procrastinating i would like to say paid off.
but yes everything seems as though it is planned and set. now hopefullly the hard part is over
Friday, August 8, 2008
12:35PM
i'm getting my marriage license today
woot
Thursday, July 31, 2008
so i have experienced some scary shit.
but as i sit now i think i just got my good share for the year.
at least i can tell you that while i doubted maya's intelligence she did a very smart thing, and well if you didn't already know this kavic is a pussy
starts out that with dogs barking, normal routine if there is another dog barking, but this bark is different, the tone in the dogs voices were more aggressive, i thought maybe someone was snooping around.
left drew to go discover what was going on...... i knew something was wrong when he went to go turn on the light, something he never does unless somethings wrong.
low and behold rattlesnake, and maya is stuck in a corner because the fucker has blocked of her enterance. thinking oh fuck maya is going to try to escape and get out..... i told drew to pick her up over the fence. maya actually stuck in the corner and didn't move, unless it started rattling and than she barked at it...
the story ends with the fuckers head cut off, i felt bad about it, i would have liked to try and contain it, but this is the wild and realisticly it wouldn't have hestitated to kill drew or myself or our puppies. i think it wondered in through our gate, its the only open area, tommorrow i am going to alert the neighbors because one neighbor has four little children, and the guy next to us has two dogs as well.
oh and by the way i was a lovely little coward and whining like a little bitch but i did do the smart thing and gave drew a shovel instead of his machette, where the striking difference was so much less of drew getting struck by the snake.
i am very up now, i have to work and i need to go back to sleep, but now i'm paranoid and i think there are snakes everywhere, however, that snake was probably one in thousand that decided to venture out.
Current mood:  scared
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
so about after a day worth of dealing with people who should never, never, own their own bakery .... and talking to about a dozen representatives.
maureen gets her way.
main cake from star trek place with logo (yay because i was a little depressed about not having the logo, though i found a pretty cake)
we get cake from whole foods and decorate it ourselves... sweetness.
cause i am stealing the design by the people who don't know shit about vegan (this coming from the girl who eats meat) but be assured there will be no diary and they will not kill my husband, woot
okay if you advertise that you have a vegan cake you should be able to provide an ingredient list with no worries correct?
hahaha you would think that...
i really don't think people get that an allergy is an allergy, and that a milk substitute is just as bad as the real thing if not worse.
I finally got tired about calling places around Vegas so i set the wedding coordinator out to hunt for one, she was the one who originally told me that the bakery they use Creations served Vegan cakes, they do not and never did, they directed me to whole foods.
i;m not really liking how my summer was spent.. i worked far too much. but in the long run i bought a house, and helped pay for the wedding which is a bonus. still lots more to pay for the wedding but at least not as much.
alrighty now i must stop procrastinating and do more to do list.
gurg
Current mood:  busy
Friday, July 18, 2008
haha during this entire time i have been very unstressed, but leave it to one little thing to make maureen go crazy...
not so much fun.
but i have been good and finally planned this wedding out
so apparently a good five people didn't get the invitations that i sent, the mail person apparently ate them. which isn't cool at all
on my list of things to do, i have a lot of shit to get done
i want school to start
mainly because than i get to go back to only four days
my brain and heart is seriously going nuts
gargggggg.
Current mood: busy
Monday, June 9, 2008
10:36PM
so im pretty sure work is going to be the death of me
oh and i want to know when i became a girl, seriously the crying has got to stop
Current mood:  depressed
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